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Dirty × 3 = Something’s Not Right

This is week three on the Suboxone Program. I’m angry, down, confused and I don’t know what to do. Of course they don’t believe a thing that I say. I’m frustrated. I’ve done everything I’m supposed to do. I haven’t missed any of the groups or Doctor visits. If I was back on the oxy’s I wouldn’t be going to the groups and Dr appointments.
One reason is the oxy’s make me cancel appointments. The second reason is I don’t want to waste anyone’s time. I believe if you’re not doing what you’re supposed to do and/or you’re still using, you need to get out of the program so someone that really wants to stop using can get in to be seen.
I am serious about quitting. I have no where to get the oxy’s and I don’t want them! I’m on the correct dose of Suboxone and I feel great. I’m learning how to cope with my issues. I’m doing everything I’m supposed to do. Oxy’s stay in your system for 3-7 days which makes it look like I’m using again. How does an addict prove to them that I haven’t used?!



I love many things; my boys, recovery, painting, drawing, crocheting, knitting, and the list goes on. Recovery from PTSD and addiction. Acrylic and watercolor painting. Soft yarn, in neutral colors. This is my place to ramble and not have to hear the judgements of others. Thank you.

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