And it doesn’t always seem for the best. I just can’t get over how perfect it was in the beginning. I ruined it. I ruined my own happiness. I do blame the bi polar on it. 95%. I also should have known better to just stop it. Let it go until I was single and on my own. Back then I was his girl. Not anymore because, “it makes me look stupid to be with someone that’s living under some guys roof.” I’m just sex now. I know ifi leave him be now there will be no us later on. He is impatient and doesn’t think I will get another job so I can support myself without anyone else’s help. I have to have two jobs, possibly even three for all that I want and NEED. It doesn’t happen over night for someone like me. Does that mean he doesn’t care one way or the other anymore? I’m not important anymore? I need to have a good attitude and just be happy with what happens and with what doesn’t happen.
Everything happens for a reason.